Team Cash

2011-01-22T07:41:00.000-07:00

Good Morning Concert For Cash day!!!!

2011-01-22T07:36:00.002-07:00

Hello,
Woke up with coffee and the Denver Post article about Cashie's garden at Children's Hospital and Concert For Cash.

I hope to see you all at The Oriental Theater tonight to celebrate and for y'all to take home all these donated goodies. PLEASE win them. Dance to the great bands, eat Cupcakes from The Denver Cupcake Truck, Ice Cream from LittleMan Ice cream.

See you tonight.

From the bottom this Mommy's heart, I want to thank you for reading this, coming to the shows, supporting my family. You are the hero in this story!!!!!!!!!!

Cashie's Mommy

The Hollyfelds-Concert For Cash headliner!!!

2011-01-12T11:26:00.003-07:00

What a great looking band, do you have your tickets yet? Just click on the Orange Concert For Cash poster to buy your.

We hope to see you Jan 22nd at The Oriental Theater. It's gonna be a great night!!!

Concert For Cash donations update

2011-01-11T08:49:00.002-07:00

Well,

We had a busy weekend at Concert For Cash headquarters(my office). Donations kept coming is:

Artwork-painted by Calvin Davis
Beautiful woven wool Mexican rugs
Blacksmith items from Steve Loo
Amazing and super creative note cards from Sally and Chris Loo
2 more ski areas donated lift ticket

That makes 5 different ski areas represented at Concert For Cash.

I hope your tickets have been bought. We are selling fast.
Please join us Jan 22nd for a really great cause and a super fun party.

Cashie's Mommy

Win this San Francicso trip

2011-01-05T10:16:00.003-07:00

And you can be the winner if...............you come to Concert For Cash on Jan 22nd.

Just donated: a week in your own APT in San Francisco!!!! Don't you want to win that? I do!Tickets are selling fast now, get yours now by clicking on this years awesome poster on the right.

It's time to ask everyone to spread the word about Concert For Cash....through Facebook, emails, sticky notes, office memos.............Spread the love that is Concert For Cash. You don't want your peeps to miss the show!

Thanks everyone,
Cashie's Mommy

Happy 2011 from Team Cash

2011-01-02T12:30:00.002-07:00

A very happy Auction winner fro Concert For Cash.........

Well, we made it to 2011 in good spirits and full of hope for the future.

Are you ready for Concert For Cash 2011? Tickets are selling fast now, for reals! message me or call if you want to buy tix directly from the source or you can get them at The Oriental Theater box office. Or online at Brown Paper tix(just click on this years poster and it will take you to ticket heaven!

So many fun donations are rolling in. It's like Christmas everyday here at Jay Street. The UPS man knows me well by now. I should invite him to the show.

San Francisco s on the Auction menu again this year. A week in an Apartment in amazing San Fran.just what the doctor ordered!!!!

We are still in need of a few volunteers for the night of the show. it's super fun and social way to be involved. Just give me a shout!!

Happiest New Years to All.

Cashie's Mommy

Happy Holidays Team Cash!

2010-12-24T10:19:00.002-07:00

Happiest Holidays to all from Team Cash.

We have our heads up, looking towards good things and grateful for today!

Be safe and good to each other this Holiday weekend,
Cashie's Mommy

Does your business or Company want to increase marketing? Sponsor Concert For Cash-

2010-12-23T09:42:00.000-07:00

2011 Concert for Cash

Benefiting The Children’s Hospital Welcome Program

Saturday, January 22, 2011

The Oriental Theater, Denver, Colorado

Featuring The Hollyfelds and Hillbilly Inferno

2011 Sponsorship Levels

Platinum Sponsor - $1,500

· Six (6) VIP Patron Level tickets to the event

o Includes: access to VIP Patron Party from 6 pm -7:15 pm
Amazing hearty appetizers catered by Shells and Sauce Italian Restaurant
Red Trolley Gelato

Live Jazz
Early access and shopping to the Silent Auction

· Special recognition as platinum sponsor at the event during on stage program

· Prominent recognition on thank you signage

Gold Sponsor - $1,000

· Four (4) VIP Patron Level tickets to the event

o Includes: access to VIP Patron Party from 6 pm -7:15 pm
Amazing hearty appetizers catered by Shells and Sauce Italian Restaurant
Red Trolley Gelato

Live Jazz
Early access and shopping to the Silent Auction

· Prominent recognition on thank you signage

Silver Sponsor - $500

· Two (2) VIP Patron Level tickets to the event

o Includes: access to VIP Patron Party from 6 pm -7:15 pm
Amazing hearty appetizers catered by Shells and Sauce Italian Restaurant
Red Trolley Gelato

Live Jazz
Early access and shopping to the Silent Auction

· Prominent recognition on thank you signage

Photo Booth Sponsor - $1,050

· Four (4) VIP Patron Level tickets to the event

o Includes: access to VIP Patron Party from 6 pm -7:15 pm
Amazing hearty appetizers catered by Shells and Sauce Italian Restaurant
Red Trolley Gelato

Live Jazz
Early access and shopping to the Silent Auction

· logo on the photo booth

· Special recognition as photo booth sponsor at the event during on stage program

· Prominent recognition on thank you signage

Red Trolley Gelato Cart Sponsor - $250

· Two (2) General Admission Level tickets to the event

banner display on gelato cart

Concert For Cash 2011 The Miracles Happen Tour poster!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-20T11:04:00.001-07:00

Alli Lawhon at Bird Dog Press, our amazing Graphics person and dear dear friend does it every year! She's amazing.
Check out here other wares at :www.birddogpress.com

Thanks Alli. You are a Poster Rock Star!!!!

Cashie's Mommy

Concert For Cash #4-The Miracles Happen Tour!

2010-12-15T10:52:00.004-07:00

Concert For Cash 2011 is rolling right along with donations coming in every day!

We have: Lift tickets to multiple ski areas in Colorado, Spa days, Spa Services, psychic readings, fun ski bags, cute beanie hats, plus more to come!!!

Denver Nuggets tickets too.

Getting tickets online is the BEST!!! Did you get your yet?

This show will sell out!
Buy today, tickets make great holiday gifts!

With 3 bands , The Denver Cupcake truck, door prizes and an amazing Silent Auction....it is the party of the winter!!!!!!!!!!

We will see you all Jan 22, 2011 at The Oriental Theater for Concert For Cash #4-The Miracles Happen Tour.

giving thanks

2010-11-24T08:50:00.003-07:00

Today I am giving thanks to all of you who have stuck by us , supported us, laughed , cried, walked, visited, kept up on Facebook, attended Concerts, Sent notes and handmade crafts, donated to our fundraiser, fed, skied, slept on our couch to check on us.
Because of you , the world is a better place.
Because of you the world is brighter, more colorful, and has more love.

I am thankful for Team Cash. What a gift!

Cashie's Mommy

Concert For Cash-this years reason

2010-11-20T08:59:00.002-07:00

So, some folks may ask: Why are Tess and Page still raising money for Children's. It's been 4 years. But this is the reason why:

There are still sick kiddos that needs lots of help. Not just Help from Nurses and Doctors, machines and medicine. They need help like: a place for their parents to sleep while kiddos are in Children's, they need support for the Families of the sick kiddos, they need a place to go and pray and sit and be quiet. That's what is happening at Cash's Healing Garden. and that's why we are gonna keep raising money and spirits and awareness that these folks are in need. It's not just the kiddos at Children's but their WHOLE families that need help.

That's why Gammy and Nana are here today at Team Cash Blog. To remind us that it does take a Team, a family, a benefit concert to help someone else. At least in our family it does.

Please join us on Jan 22nd in Denver at The Oriental Theater to not only celebrate Cashie's short but powerful life , you will be helping another family.....

Thanks and have a great day everyone.

Cashie's Mommy

donations accepted are are rolling in!!!

2010-11-03T16:54:00.002-07:00

Hey all,

Donations are rolling in for Concert For Cash!!!

Tix are on sale too. There are a limited amount for the VIP Patron Party so buy your EARLY!!! This will see out!

Thinking it's goin' be a good good night!

Cashie's Mommy

Concert For Cash 2011

2010-10-25T14:48:00.002-07:00

Hello All,

The Concert For Cash train has officially left the station..we are rolling for this years event to be its BEST EVER!!!

A few changes are in places for the 2011 show.

The first :

A VIP Patron Party from 6-7:15 pm read about that and all the other goodies: can we be happy about Cupcakes and Gelato? I think I am!

Will you be apart of this magical event?

Concert For Cash
with The Hollyfelds
and Hillbilly Inferno
Jan 22, 2011
The Oriental Theater
4335 West 44th Ave
Denver, Co 80212
VIP Patron Party tix: $35.00

Includes: access to VIP Patron Party from 6 pm -7:15 pm

Amazing hearty appetizers catered by Shells and Sauce Italian Restaurant

Red Trolley Gelato, Live Jazz by Peter Bryson

Early access and shopping to the Silent Auction

General Admission tix: $20.00

Doors open at 7:15 pm

Denver Cupcake Truck will be at Concert For Cash

Silent Auction/Drawing

We are taking those tax deductible donations now. Jut shoot me an email or call and we can talk details.

Thanks everyone for your ongoing support. Page and I wish no one would ever have to be in the position we are in, but our lives have changed so much and here's way to give back!!!

Big love to all,

Cash's Mommy

Concert For Cash 2011

2010-08-02T16:30:00.002-07:00

Hey all,

I know it's only August but the wheels for Concert For Cash 2011 are turning !!!!!!

Hopefully booking bands soon, getting the new venue booked, working our benefit magic on the logistics!!!!!

Save these dates: Jan 21 or Jan 22nd Denver Concert For Cash 2011 #4

On the adoption front: we are optimistically waiting for the phone to ring. Waiting this summer means: shows are Red Rocks, working our awesome jobs, running Gardening By Tess, running runnnig running, fishing(Page), making jewelery(me)......gardening of course, working on the Gaucho, being social. fells good to be back in the social swing of things. Can not beat Denver for fun!!!!!

Love to all, keep thinking those good thoughts. Come On Nepal!!!

love,
Cash's Mommy

5K run in honor of Cash

2010-06-11T05:13:00.004-07:00

Ran my first 5K in almost ten years in honor of Cash. A rainy evening in Hollis NH, but full of spirit and hope. love, anna

saw the fox again

2010-04-23T18:05:00.002-07:00

So I was out for a run this afternoon, I saw my pal the Fox, who I think lives with his 2 horses in Wheat ridge. The horses came over and stuck their pretty heads over the fence so I could pat their noses.

We got a call from the adoption agency this week. Nepal wanted some more documents about Page and I. That means that Nepal is looking at our file. They have touched it!!!!!
Trying hard not to be too excited but it's the best news in a very long time, Nepal wise.

Gardening By Tess is in it's 10Th year. What? When did that happen? I am still in shock but loving it. My crew of stellar gentlemen rock and we are gardening up a storm all over the Metro area.

Page is doing very well in life, just turned 40, with work, just sold his first project, and fishing....what can I say..it makes him happier than anything right now as we wait and wait for the phone to ring.

Special shout outs to Jules and Crisinda. I think of yo both all the time and can not wait to meet your new little ones when they arrive.

Love to all,
Cashie's Mommy

Nepal Adoption news

2010-03-04T12:46:00.002-07:00

Well, It's been a while since I last posted. Mostly recovering from Concert For Cash 2010. We raised over $45,000.00 in funds and donations for The Childrens Hospital and Nepal Orphanages.
When we will be giving that $ to Nepal is anyone's guess.

Nepal seems to be having a bit of trouble, to say the very least, in getting their act together to make these adoptions happen. We have sent letters to Congressmen, signed petitions, talked many times with our agency, prayed, run, skied, gardened to keep our minds and hearts full and hopeful.
We have to stay hopeful about this. Keeping the Faith is our motto at Team Cash. keep the faith!!!!!!!!!!!!!

24 hrs till Concert For Cash

2010-01-22T08:00:00.002-07:00

Now, you may not know this but .............Cash would have been 3 on Monday Jan 18Th. We are celebrating his small but mighty life tomorrow night at The Oriental Theater with The Railbenders and The Mitch Lehn Folk Trio. Tix are only$10.00. Click on The Concert For Cash poster to the right to buy tix.
We are going to sell out.We have over $25000.00 in donations for you to win. We are not taking this home with us . We don't have the room. We need space for our Nepalese grommets to come.
We hope to see you tomorrow.
I will be there. I am his Mommy.

big xoxox to all of you who donated, called, bought tix, Facebooked well wishes. It all helps.
Cashie's Mommy

10 days until Concert For Cash withThe Railbenders

2010-01-13T22:51:00.002-07:00

Hello hello,

10 days until concert for Cash. Do you have your tickets yet? The phone has been ringing for tickets and donations all week. I hope you have tix or plan on getting then at the door..we hope to sell out!

With over $15,000 in donations so far there has to be something you could win:

skis, fishing gear, facials, food gift certificates, Bowling, trip to the Bahamas, artwork, sleds, kites, Sock Monkey!!!!

We hope to see you Jan 23rd to rock out, dance our behinds off, and of course raise $$ by celebrating that angel of Mine-Cashie!!!

My love to you Beanie,

Cash's Mommy

region - Ski - HEAD.com

2010-01-12T16:20:00.000-07:00

region - Ski - HEAD.com

My Tour at Never Summer Factory

2010-01-11T09:48:00.002-07:00

So last week, Friday morning I got up the guts to call Never Summer and shamelessly ask for a Donation for Concert For Cash. I was thinking: a hat, a hoody, some smaller swag....Vince(who used to own the Board Room in Lakewood, Co...where I used to shop and bought my skateboard at) said " hold on a min and I will ask Tim the Owner. Vince came back on the phone 1 min later with a 'WOW...Tim said we will give you a snowboard. Please know this is really rare and good timing on your part.When do you want to get it and do you want a tour of the factory?" Hell yes and I will be there at 2 pm(it was 11:30 am....didn't want to say be there in 5 mins , thought I would look too desperate!!

So at 2 pm, with my cupcakes as a Thank you in hand I entered the true world of Snowboard

ing..the factory! Some of you may know that I have been riding or a rider for a while now...say 22 years.Sponsored and all in the mid 90's. wow that makes me sound super old. anyways, vanity aside...I was shaking in my Simple sneaks as I entered into the world I have loved for so long and was personally led around the factory, seeing all the processes that make a Never Summer board. meeting craftsmen, meeting the owner. Seriously ....so without any more hesitation...they presented my with a Women's snowboard. Profusely thanked me for the sugar snacks and i was on my way in about an hrs time.

Can I say my little angeman Cashie had a part in the ? YES!!! Cashie angel has been working these types of miracles for 2.5 years now.

Concert For Cash is so much more than a music event and fundraiser...it's a celebration, a grateful festival, a community gathering to share the positive of what we experience in life.

Will you join us on Jan 23rd for this event?

More details up above . Get your tix now before they sell out.

Have a great Monday, I know I will...

Cashie's Mommy

update for Concert For Cash

2010-01-08T09:30:00.002-07:00

Hello Hello,

Happiest New Years to all of you. Been so busy with organizing I haven't posted but check out what we have NOW!!

Lilly Pads Car Seat Covers will be donating for the second year...we LOVE repeat donors!

A Custom Mural has been donated by Artist Calvin Davis, he will be at the event with his portfolio to answer questions..value:$500.00! Wow!

So many things to be grateful for today: my health, Page's health, our work, our fuzzy family. Cowie is on my lap right now as I type. Our home, our families, and YOU! all of you who read this blog.....we are grateful.

on the Adoption front: Nepal has had meetings , I have heard they are going to start sending out travel letters to those who have been matched already. We are not there yet but any movement is good.

So if I may ask anything of the universe today it will be: Please Nepal, see our dossier, see that we are a great couple who will be the best , stable, strong and loving parents to a little grommit from your beautiful country.

As always, I love you my Beanie kidangel.

Cashie's Mommy

San Francisco donation!!!

2009-12-30T17:35:00.002-07:00

San Francisco week stay!!!!!!

1 week lodging in a sweet in-law studio Apt that can accommodate 2(1 bed)in beautiful San Francisco. Small Kitchenette, sept entrance, access to laundry and info about the city.Welcome dinner and breakfast after the overnight.

This will also be in the online auction with Black Tie Colorado. Will post when that's up and running!

Cash's mommy

This could be YOURS!!!!!!!

Harborside at The Atlantis donation

2009-12-30T13:25:00.003-07:00

1 week August 29Th -Sept 5Th has been donated for the Auction. Value: $2500.00!!!!

We are going to have an On line Auction with Black Tie Colorado for these types of items . It will run before Concert for Cash and a few days after.

This vacation could be YOURS!

and tix are only $10.00 and for sale on line at :

www.brownpapertickets.com/event/92428

Happy New Year!

Cash's Mommy

2009-12-23T12:49:00.001-07:00

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

Zen Red Head -3rd year donor

2009-12-22T10:33:00.002-07:00

Tamara Hutchins is not only who Page and I go to for acupuncture, we took Cashie there after his diagnosis. Tamara is the very definition f a Healer. and a friend.
You could win a session (or three) with her healing touch in Denver. ah.......

a week in Maine at Vacationland Campground!!!!!

2009-12-22T10:30:00.002-07:00

WOW! Who doesn't want a vacation in Maine, and camping at this super cool, super fun and family friendly campground. When I check out the website I kept thinking: "Nobody puts baby in the corner" it's that kind of place...super fun times for all.

Thank you my dear friend Gretchen Krim Osgood for donating .

More amazing Silent Auction items

2009-12-22T10:26:00.002-07:00

A signed(wow!) copy of Steven Kings new novel, 'Under The Dome'. Set in Maine. oh! Creepy and good. Thanks Mom for that amazing donation.

Tix on sale now!

Jackson Hole donation

2009-12-17T10:49:00.002-07:00

We also received a 3 of 4 day lift ticket for TWO people from Jackson Hole. Hold on, it's getting crazy here in my office...all these amazing donations.

Really making my week.

Oh,

and two super yummy Cloudveil jackets just arrived! Men's Medium and Women's medium. Really! Really! cool jackets.

Do you have your tickets for Concert For Cash yet?

Lovely Confections

2009-12-17T10:48:00.001-07:00

and Lovely Confections has also donated! We are on a cupcake role.
Yummy!!!!!

CUPCAKES!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-17T10:47:00.000-07:00

We have a donation from Happy Cakes Cupcakes in Denver. wahoo!!!!!!!

cute bags arrived! You could win them!

2009-12-10T16:11:00.002-07:00

2 super cute bags arrived a few minutes ago from Sherpani. YOU COULD WIN THESE at the Concert For Cash.

Tickets are available from us. Just email:

tess@gardeningbytess.com if you would like to purchase

online this Saturday at http://www.theorientaltheater.com/

www.brownpapertickets.com/event/92428

Thank yo for passing the Event info along. Facebook has been a godsend!!!

Xoxo,

cashie's mommy

Cloudveil and Campgrounds donations

2009-12-08T10:10:00.003-07:00

The phones are ringing and we are getting donations from all over the USA!

How does a week camping in Maine sound?

or some Cloudveil gear?

What about a Kayak or some Tele or Alpine Skis?

We will have it all at the Concert For Cash.

Tickets will be on sale for Concert For Cash on Dec 12Th.

at http://www.theorientaltheater.com/

AND

www.brownpapertickets.com/event/92428

and thru me of course. If you want to sell tickets for Concert For Cash just call me at 303.550.4310 and we can get you set up with a sales package.

YAY!!!

This defiantly helps keep me from wondering when the phone will ring and our agency will tell us of our match with our kids in Nepal.

Please keep those donations coming in. We have so many kiddos to help out at Children's.

xoxox,

tess

cashies mommy

Fox

2009-12-04T17:05:00.002-07:00

Saw a fox last night as I was pulling into the house. We also saw a Fox on Sunday night and I dreamt of a Fox 2 Nights ago. Fox!!!!!!!

We have had more donations today:

Broncos Camp/tailgating chairs

Kites-super big and colorful kites

Sleds-really fast looking

Tax assistance from Affordable Tax prep-Paul Jarvis...tax guru.

Thank you all so much!

Cashies Mommy

concert for cash Silent Auction items .....and the list keeps growing

2009-12-03T10:36:00.004-07:00

Hey,

I thought it might be a good thing to start a running list of the auction items that rolling into my office. You guys are so generous. We also confirmed the Lara Bar will be donating again. How fun is that! I love my snacks.....

Sears gift card

Budget Car rental gift certificates

Smith sunglasses

Spy Sunglasses

ABasin season pass!!

Mountain Mamas 1 year membership(hiking with your newborns, toddlers, so much fun)

Hardwood Flooring services

Dinner for 2 at Jenny's in Empire

Comedy works tickets

San Francisco 1 week lodging package with welcome dinner and breakfast

Atlantis resort in the Bahamas 1 week lodging in condo

Savory Spice Shop BBQ kit(these spices are THE BEST!!)

Voice lessons from Pro musician Julie Gusseroff

Mortgage refinance assistance from Trish Haggerty

Gold Watch

Hot Mama Jewelry

painting from artist Greg McFadden

High Road to Fitness gym workouts

Confluence Kayak Shop ski tunes

Dave Morgan Photography(amazing!)

and the list keeps growing.

Tickets will be available to purchase from us next week and I will update the blog and Facebook when they are available online .

So exciting.

We are still taking any donations: really it's tax deductible....

No news on the Nepal adoption to speak of. We hear that things in Nepal are going to get started up again. it's a lot of prayer, running, and keeping myself busy with the Concert ffor Cash that keep me from going batty.

xoxo,

Cashies Mommy

Concert For Cash 2010

2009-11-17T10:02:00.002-07:00

WOW!!! It's getting to be Benefit concert time already! Where did the year go.

We booked The RAILBENDERS again this year....wahooo.get ready to put on your boogie shoes for a nite of dancing, laughing, celebrating fun...in honor or and because he is just the coolest angel baby....Cash. My kid.My star.

The details are above but you can always call or email me for more info.

tess@gardeningbytess or 303.550.4310

Yes. we always take donations for Silent Auction items. We have so many fun things already: gift cards, rental car gift certificates, sunglasses..... and we just started!!!

Adoption update: no new news from Nepal but we are hopeful. We are staying busy(thus the 3rd benefit Concert) and running tons.....it's been 2.5 yrs or so since we started the adoption journey.......waiting is not my strength but maybe I just don't see myself as having patience.

As always, I just can't wait to see you my star!

Cashies Mommy

fox

2009-11-08T11:34:00.002-07:00

HI,

No new news from Nepal but we did finish our parenting classes yesterday. At least for Nepal.

I dreamt of 2 Fox last night. One was zipping around and one was trying to bite my wrist. taking it as a good sign of babies to come.

We are gearing up for the 3rd Concert for Cash. looking for Bands.....all suggestions welcome.

Can't wait to get that phone call and hear about our grommies.

Cashies Mommy

Race for the Cure

2009-10-05T09:49:00.002-07:00

Auntie Brenda and Sandie took Team Cash to the the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure in St. Pete this past weekend.

Nepal Update

2009-09-29T15:14:00.002-07:00

Well,
We are waiting, for the match to come via phone from our agency. It's crazy to think that our kids are in Nepal, just waiting for us to come pick them up. I have joined a Yahoo group that has others who are also adopting from Nepal. Everyday there seem to be more matches made. Well at least until this round of Holidays in Nepal started.
We are working on the house and yard.....getting ready. It's so hard not to buy baby clothes or diapers....but we have no idea what our kids will need yet.

As you know, we put in for 2 kids. So universe....if there are 2 babies in Nepal that need us for parents...we are READY!!!!!!!!!!

It's almost time beanie.
Love , Cashies Mommy

eKantipur.com - Nepal's No.1 News Portal

2009-09-09T15:29:00.000-07:00

eKantipur.com - Nepal's No.1 News Portal

the fox

2009-08-24T17:10:00.003-07:00

Page saw the fox this am on his run............cashie checkin' in with Daddy. Come on home kiddo!!!

We put up his Prayer Flags last nite, tomorrow is our 8 year anniversary.
Calling you home my monkey. Calling you home. My Shining Star.

Cashie's Mommy

dossier to NEPAL!!!!!

2009-08-12T20:19:00.002-07:00

Hey all,
Our Paperwork has been sent off to NEPAL!!!!!!! OK, thank you for all the well wishes. We feel it really we do.

prayers need to go out to the Nepalese govt to get a Prime Minister soon to start up the matching process...it can't be long now.

YAY!!!

Soon beanie.
Cashies Mommy

2009-07-20T15:06:00.002-07:00

It's been a while but I felt like I have not had any news until now:

we are almost at the fingerprinting stage for Nepal. then when that happens it's 4-6 weeks until we get the LAST FORM!!!!!!! Then our stuff gets sent to NEPAL!!!!!!

Please send good thoughts for a speedy governmemt person to get thru our Paperwork fast and Match us.

Love you Beanie, soon you'll be back soon.

Cashies Mommy

Cash's Healing garden dedication

2009-06-23T12:58:00.002-07:00

HI, it's taken a while to come down form all the excitement around the garden dedication, family surprising us bu flying in!!! and the actuality that this chapter is done and we are moving forward to babies from Nepal and China...

Here are some pictures of the great event.more to come. even more on Facebook.

I can not thank you all who came, called, emails, sent Flowers and cards and prayers our way. we really do feel all of it. and it all helps in the healing process.

Thank you all again for letting us grieve so publicly.

Cash's Garden Dedication

2009-06-16T11:35:00.002-07:00

The Garden Dedication was amazing. A huge thanks to everyone.

http://www.denverpost.com/news/ci_12590653

It was an amazing day. Cashies spirit is strong.

Thanks to everyone,

Cash's Dad

Garden dedication

2009-06-09T18:51:00.002-07:00

So yes we are wearing the Team Cash shirts to the dedication. Please wear them if you have them.
See you Sunday.
At the Children's Hospital at 11 am .
We will be meeting at the Main Entrance and walking over to the garden together.
Have a few things to say, a few thank yous to be given.
Then cake and coffee follows.

See you there.

Cashie's Mommy

The Fox and Betty

2009-05-31T10:23:00.002-07:00

HI, So i ran into the Fox on Friday am while running with Stripey. I know Cashie was just making sure his Mommy was ok and had a good weekend.

Betty Lipton said he vivists me. i think she was surprized when I said he was here this morning. We are working on our paperwork for the Nepal Adoption. Very exciting, so much paper!!!!!!

Whatever it takes to get our son backwith us.

The Boulder Bolder heart attatck man is ok.

All is well.
I love you my Beanie.

Cashie's Mommy

Boulder Bolder 2009

2009-05-25T14:34:00.002-07:00

Page and I just ran the Boulder Boulder for the 2nd year. We ran last year as a way to just get thru. and this year was really not that different.

An older man collaped in front of us while running the race. page was on his phone calling 911 and I was trying to get him rolled over with the help of other runners and check if he was breathing. the paramedics came, the ambulance came, we don't know if he is ok but they did get his heart restarted. it happened in a flash and i just can only pray that this mans family know where he is now.
i hope he's ok.

life can go in a flash, just like that and i hope to take more time with those I love make more of an effort . even with all we have been thru......this man was just running the freakin boulder bolder. please let's all have a little more time with our families and friends. even if they drive us batty. just send the love their way today.

Can't wait to see you again Beanie,

cashie's Mommy

may 14th

2009-05-14T07:43:00.002-07:00

Happy Angel Day Cashie.

My hero, my shining star. my son. I miss you so much. Daddy and I are going to do somethin fun together today to celebrate you!!!!!

You are my angel.
I love you,
Cashie's Mommy

Cash Healing Garden

2009-05-05T20:13:00.002-07:00

It's built!!!!!!!!!! I am still in shock that we actually did it. With a lot of help from everyone but the garden at Children's Hospital is finished. except for a few details like engraving the bench...it's done.

Invites are out :

June 14Th at 11am at The Children's Hospital in Aurora, Co

we will meet at the main entrance and walk over together.

Holly Anderson, our Children's hero and friend, will be there to assist in getting everyone a visitors pass for the event.

We hope to see you then, on June 14th.

Happy Mother's Day

Cashies Mommy

Cash's Healing Garden dedication

2009-04-20T08:52:00.001-07:00

You are all invited to Cash's Healing Garden dedication at The Children's Hospital on June 14th at 11am. We will be sending out formal invites hopefully this week but this is a safe the date.

Cash's Mommy

cashie

2009-04-02T20:40:00.003-07:00

I miss my son and there is not a day that goes by right now that I am not stunned by my memories of 2 years ago when Cashie was here with us on Earth. I miss holding my Baby. Beanie. I miss hiking with him. I miss watching Page give him baths and being the best Daddy ever! I just miss my kid. Waiting to be together again is so hard......I so know why people really fall apart when this happens to them. I know it's ok to fall apart but something is holding me together about 75% of the time and I think that's a freakin' miracle.

So know that as the garden gets built and we get ready for it's dedication ceremony this summer(dates to follow) that it's hard waiting and eating all the M+M's that are on the planet. I am so not kidding.

God love you Cashie...for it is you that holds me together . It's you!!! I am blessed to be his Mom. Really I am .

Cashie's Mommy

rockin in the free world for Cashie's garden

2009-03-25T16:57:00.005-07:00

Page and I picked out boulders for Cashie's Healing Garden yesterday with Nicole from Urban Farmer(the Landscaping Company that is doing the installation of the garden). to clarify: I did the design, Urban Farmer is digging the holes. It's pretty nice being the client I have found.

We hope these boulders fit well within the garden and hat many kids have tons of fun playing on them.

I miss my little kiddo today but this is the next step to being a mom, with kids here on Earth, so I have to keep my chin up, wipe my tears, and just trust that Joy is on it's way to us. In the form of kids.

China info: we are just in line for our babies....the wait could be long......pray for Godspeed in China.

xoxo, Cashies's Mommy

Log in date for China 3/12/09

2009-03-14T14:11:00.002-07:00

We have our log in date for China...3/12/09 WAHOO Babies are coming home to us.

YAY!!!!

Cashie's Mommy

Cash's Healing Garden!!!!!!

2009-03-09T13:32:00.002-07:00

We met with Urban Farmer and Holly at Children's this am to talk gardens. It is going to be AMAZING!!!! Page and I are really excited about how easy this seems to be with Urban Farmer, much easier than the China paperwork. Which is now in CHINA!!!!!! They are on their way home, I can feel it. My mom, Gammy extraordinaire, always send us a note in Late Jan to remind us that after the dark, cold winter Spring always emerges. Well, I feel it today!

Thank you Cashie for helping Mommy and daddy thru this hard winter .....we just can't wait to hold yo again. And your sister:)))

To the Garden,

Cashie's Mommy

the fox

2009-03-03T15:32:00.002-07:00

So Page and I were out for a run last night, in the dark, with the puppies. We really never run together during the week and NEVER run at night...but as we passed a street in Wheatridge Spider spotted the fox. Just sitting in the middle of the road. looking cool and comfortable and not a bit scared of the huge dogs so close to him. We said hi and watched as he sniffed around and the ran off.
I know it's just Cashie telling Mommy and Daddy to keep being patient that he's on his way back to us. I get so sad at times. My doctor even told me about this stuff Sam-e to take that will help more than St Johns wort. It is helping, along with running and everything else. I just want to be Mommy in real life. Not just mommy in spirit some days. My Faith is so strong and at times I wonder how much stronger it needs to be for my kid to come back into my arms.
I just miss you Beanie. Please come home soon.

Cashies Mommy

two trampoline foxes

2009-02-27T23:10:00.000-07:00

way too good not to post

{ Cullin Says }

2009-02-02T10:32:00.002-07:00

Dear Teri & Page,
Awesome concert Saturday night!!!

So, this morning I am wearing my TeamCash Tshirt and as Cullin and I were eating breakfast, he points to my chest and says "Baby Cash!" .... pause "He can come to my house?"

Jan 22 update-embrace the pain

2009-01-22T16:05:00.004-07:00

So, it's 9 more days until this Benefit Concert. Do you have your tix?

We ran the Rock n Roll Marathon this past Sunday in Phoenix. What a great experience. not going to say those last 6 miles were not so hard but I just kept telling myself: I can do anything for 6 miles. Plus there was so much support. There was even a sign that said " Embrace the Pain" I just laughed because that is all you can do when your legs are lead and you want to quit.

And that was all on Cashie's 2ND Bday. Happy Birthday Beanie. I just miss you so much kid but I know you are always with Mommy.

So, We hope to see you all at the event or to be with us in Spirit. Thank you for all you love.

Cashie's Mommy

{ this year's poster, revealed!}

2009-01-07T10:05:00.003-07:00

I saw SpringCreek Bluegrass on NYE with Teri & Page ... they are awesome and you should come see them and support the Children's Hospital, and more importantly, Cash's Healing Garden!

{from Alli}

2009-01-04T15:19:00.001-07:00

Working on the TeamCash Concert #2 poster. But while you wait ... here's something to watch ...

Concert For Cash on Jan 31st info

2008-12-22T20:22:00.001-07:00

ok so that was WAY too small to read

Jan 31st at The Oriental Theater in Denver. www.theorientaltheater.com for tix or call me at 303.550.4310

Bands: Spring Creek Bluegrass
Elephant Revival Concept
The Snake Oil Band

There will be a Silent Auction too.

Door open at 6pm

Tix are $20.00

Benefit Concert Jan 31st

2008-12-22T20:16:00.003-07:00

Here's The new info...a bit small but I am trying to figure out how to edit this blog....not a computer wiz. We hope to see you all on Jan 31st. It will be a great event!
Merry Christmas!

The Fox

2008-12-03T19:27:00.002-07:00

Hey, I am now done with a daily schedule of gardening and it's that time of year when I know I have plenty to do but find myself floating......maybe it's post season, post long season for me...which I am grateful for. Maybe it's the waiting and missing Cashie. You know he always comes when I Call to him, always. He always shows me what to do, what to say, where to go.

I saw The Fox tonight after guitar lessons. He just was out, cruising around Arvada. I know that Cashie is just telling me to keep holding on, taking care of me, and being healthy. I was on my way to Yoga....which helps with the grief.
I still cry most days, just in private. I just miss him so much and want to hold him again.
Soon, he's coming home soon.
I love you Beanie,
Cashie's Mommy

Ironman Mike Sawyer

2008-11-24T16:59:00.002-07:00

Our dear friend Mike Sawyer, just finished with amazing results the Iron Man(yes that's 112 miles on a road bike, 26.2 mile run, and swim 2.5 MILES) and he did it for Cash.

He did it for Cash.

Who's the Rock star now.

Page and I are humbled to tears that we have friends that continue to put our son in their hearts...and in this case..in their bikes, running shoes, etc.

Cash is love!!!!!Mike is Ironman. Two heros.

Cash's Mommy

Happy

2008-11-08T17:53:00.002-07:00

Hi,
We are planning another Benefit Concert for early Feb 2009. The money will go to Children's Hospital again, not the garden but hopefully the Bereavement Program. So other families can get some help too.
More to come.
Love you all.
The adoption process is slow but steady. Twins, keep thinking and wishing for Twins.

xoxoxo, Cashies Mommy

Buddah in the bucket

2008-10-16T08:56:00.002-07:00

So our Home study has been sent to the Adoption Alliance...Big step.
yay!!!

Love, Cashie's Mommy

adoption steps

2008-10-13T17:32:00.003-07:00

We meet with Myra in a few minutes to read over the Home Study for Chinese Adoption. I know this is such an important step to Cashie coming home, whether he is Chinese, Irish, adopted from Denver , adopted from somewhere else.
I just ask you all now to send those strong good thoughts to 2205 jay st and get my son home soon.

I just need to be strong for my kid.
I love you Beanie,
Cashie's Mommy

2 foxes

2008-09-20T08:16:00.003-07:00

We saw 2 fox last night as I was driving us home in the van from a great birthday dinner with Evan and Miran. It was such a great night and I turned on the wrong street and a minute later said to Page" is this our street?" and then we saw the first little red fox. Yay!

Then as we were pulling up to our house not 2 minutes later , another red fox scooted across our street.

2 fox. Twins!!!!!!

I have been wanting to see a fox for so long and then they appear just when I really need them.

Thanks Cashie, thanks for looking out for us and protecting us and bringing your sister along.

All is well,

Cashies Mommy

Happy Birthday PapaScan

2008-09-10T08:12:00.002-07:00

Today is Cash's Grandfathers birthday Joe Scanlon, my dad. Dad would be 79 years old but he seemed like 25. I miss you both, my hero and my friend.

Heaven must be a big party today and I am so glad you are together.

Cashis's Mommy

gratitude

2008-09-08T18:14:00.002-07:00

You know, I still have grief attatches and miss Cashie so very much. Today was one of those days. It's just cold and damp out, not typical Colorado weather at all. I just miss my Son.
We spent the weekend with friends at a wonderful wedding and all the kids were there.
I didn't realize how much I need our friends....I miss them and they just want page and I to be happy. I has made me stop, take a minute and say I am very grateful for all our Friends who just love us.

On the Adoption front: We have put in for TWINS!!!!!!! YEEHAW! Why not I say, fill up our we any house with messes and diapers, and bottles, and toys. TWINS!!!!!

Cash joined me on my morning run today...just hanging on my shoulders, snuggling his Mommy. I feel so lucky that he stays with us . I am not sure if other people in our situation would feel their kids too. I hope so for them. He's a great running partner. He seems to really like Justin Timberlake songs:)))

Love to all and my Super Hero kid,
Cashies Mommy

Red Fox in Gunnison

2008-08-29T10:01:00.002-07:00

So, My sister Trish, Tyler(cash's cousin, and Scott are in Gunnison for a wedding and they saw a huge Red Fox. Cashie is just making sure they are protected and safe as they travel thru Colorado on their vacation.
I love how thoughtful Cashie is. You know Page and I have been talking a lot about having another biological pregnancy. It's really scary, really scary. We have decided to forgo that thought for now and concentrate on adopting. From where I don't know yet.
Thank you all again for your support and love and understanding. Grief is such an long road and I know that there is no way i could feel as ok as I do today without you all who read the blog, and comment on it. I just can't thank you enough for caring.
xoxox, Cashie's Mommy

send your team prayers out

2008-08-17T18:08:00.002-07:00

Hi all, We need more Team Cash prayers to be sent out to an old friend who just lost her husband. They were parents of 2 little children,they are a young couple just 4 years married. it was sudden and totally unexpected. Becky will need all your prayers .

I know the power of Team Cash...please say a few prayers for Becky and her girls and her late husband, John. He was a great husband and Dad. he will be missed dearly.
Thank you for your help.
xoxox, Cashie's Mommy

ps. and Cashie Angel, it's your job right now to go to Becky and hug her and let her know we all love her.

Cash's Garden progress update

2008-08-02T13:36:00.004-07:00

Page and i and the Mass family in Boston at the Hatch Shell last Friday night for the movies.

Hi, So as I was driving today I thought about how it's been hard to post what is going thru my mind these days on the blog. There are so many factors in us getting pregnant again: so many things I am petrified about and when I hear someone(whom I know is just trying to help by giving their opinion) say: 'just go try again' I am now finding myself defending my utter paralyzing fear. I do not want to have to say good bye to Cashie twice. that's why i am scared and it's a very real fear. We don't have ANYTHING that is 100% sure that our own baby, which we know we can conceive, would not have SMA. No test is 100%. No test. SO we are praying for direction, praying for answers and praying for patience. I know a lot of couples do it, just go out and get pregnant again and hope for the best but Page and I are not most couples and this whole experience has taught me that. We are different, Cash is different, we grieve differently than others: I mean who has a Concert on their kids bday for 700 people. ? Not one of teh couples that were at those support groups we went to last summer.

We met with Holly Anderson from Children's yesterday and talked about the garden progress. Page and I have set a goal to get the plans submitted by our anniversary 8/25. I would love to have the garden installed, or the process started this fall. We will need bodies when that time comes. so we'll let you know.

I know that trusting my heart and pages heart and cashies heart that we will all be back together in body again soon is just the answer. just that simple. I cry less but i still cry. and sometimes it's tears of Joy that i am Cashie's mommy.

I feel so lucky that he chose me. I just can't wait to hold him again.

Miss you beanie,

Cashie Mommy

Butterfly

2008-07-15T17:31:00.003-07:00

So, I was telling my awesome crew yesterday about our talk with Spirit Babies man-Walter Machiean. www.spiritbabies.com
About what our options are for Cash coming back to us: whether it's biological, IVF testing, or adoption and then a HUGE yellow butterfly flew right thru us all and hung out for a bit and flew on. I feel blessed by my angel.I know the answer will come when the timing is right. Thanks Cashie!!!!!
Love you,
Cash's Mommy

Facebook

2008-07-10T15:21:00.001-07:00

Thanks everyone for signing up to be apart of the Team Cash blog. We are all on the Team and that little angel is just leading the way. it gets emotional for sure, and yes...it can be sad but Cash doesn't want any of us to be sad. he wants us to be Happy...and the blog is a way to share the experience so we don't bottle it up inside. You can post...and celebrate his life and yours.
WELCOME to Team Cash!!!!!
xoxox, Cash's Mommy

Happy 4th

2008-07-04T14:00:00.002-07:00

So, I have card on my desk that I read daily. it says:

"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage"

Let me be courageous today....
I love you beanie,
Cash's mommy

Cash takes on the Grand Canyon with Andrew

2008-06-23T15:52:00.001-07:00

So, our adventure seeking son went down the Grand with our friend andrew Schmidt.Like Father like son. Rock on boys!!!!!

cash's mommy

my super heros

2008-06-22T15:21:00.003-07:00

Made it thru, made it thru Father's Day. made it thru our first time apart since Cash's passed on to Angel ville. page is heading home right now after a River Trip. Can we all say a big" AMEN' that he got back on the river. I think his soul needed it so badly. Just got in from running my longest solo run since forever-felt great. I am hoping it's going to rain now and get everything soaked. We need it badly.
You know, Cash just hangs out with me all the time and I trust that anyone reading won't think I am nuts, because he just is there/here. he visits, makes me laugh, tells me to do fun things, let's me not be afraid. I really hope that someday my story/our story will be helpful to someone else...and then i pray that no one ever needs to hear my story that SMA won't take anymore babies from their Moms and Dads. cash has plans for us. I dreamt of him 2 nights ago but it was in the future. He was a newborn, about 8 weeks old, and strong. he could hold his head up. and his body was strong. at the time I didn't recognize him because I was so amazed that he has such strength and then I realised that it was Cashie. and he was blond and super healthy and STRONG.
So I know he's on his way back to me. back to all of us. Cash is just doing his Angel job right now, watching over marne's Dad and keeping all those boaters safe.
I love you my super hero.
Cash's Mommy

Father's Day

2008-06-15T13:00:00.002-07:00

So it's Father's Day today. Though we survived it last year it feels like this is one of the last big holidays we need to make it through in this first year since Cash's passing. All week, I've been feeling incredibly grateful that I'm Cash's father. I've seen foxes and different signs that Cash truly is zipping around watching over me. I can't wait for him to come back to me. I need him. I need him, I need him. I know I'm a dad, but I just want to change some diapers, and snuggle, and play, and read stories. I love you Cashie, and I hope that when you come back you're ready for all the super fun things we're gonna do.

Happy Father's Day everyone and thanks to everyone who has called and lent some support. I truly appreciate it.

need some team Cash prayers for our friends Dad

2008-05-30T07:30:00.002-07:00

This is a prayer from some of team cash here in denver. Their Dad had an accident and is in the hospital.
Please pray for his recovery.
Thank you.

This means you to Beanie, the most powerful little angel around. Your job is to be with Marne's Dad and take care of him. Make him feel better.
I love you my hero, Cash's mommy

A Prayer for my Dad

I ask everyone to please say a prayer, send beautiful thoughts, make angelic wishes, every morning, every afternoon and every evening for my dad. My dad! My dad, whose main purpose in life is to be the wonderful father that he is to his four kids and son-in-law. And in about 5 months he will be able to be a wonderful a poppie. My dad, a first time poppie! I know how amazing he will be with the little one! We need him to get better fast because we count on him, more than he will ever know! My dad, who calls his kids every Friday night no matter what. My dad, who has the best sense of humor. My dad, the “tough guy” with the biggest heart ever. My dad, who gives great hugs. MY dad. Right now, at this very moment, MY DAD needs all of the love in the universe to surround him! Remember…PRAYERS, BEAUTIFUL THOUGHTS AND TONS OF ANGELELIC WISHES for my dad.

memorial Day 2008

2008-05-26T13:50:00.002-07:00

Page and I ran the Bolder Boulder this AM. It was fun to do this together and we ran thru the 50, 000 people, reading their signs on their backs dedicating their run to Soldiers. it was moving, and I think that we always now dedicate everything we do to our Son. My hero Cash.

I love you beanie,
Cash's Mommy

keep the faith

2008-05-19T07:44:00.002-07:00

yes, I feel different. and no, I am not sure how but different.

Only one grief attatck this whole weekend...that's a first.

I must keep going. I love my son. I miss you Beanie.

Cash's Mommy

Cash's Garden

2008-05-15T15:27:00.001-07:00

he joined us late last night in the garden His Daddy and I planted in his honor at our home.

May 15th

2008-05-15T08:23:00.002-07:00

How the heck did we make it a year? I have no idea, all the love and support from all of you. the emails and calls just poured in the past week and over the Mother's Day weekend. Both page and I feel the love. Thank you for the basket of flowers on our doorstep-God father Jason. I am touched that all of you are pulling for us. it's all cashie's strength and example. I must keep going, I must get out of bed.....
You know the scary part now is : how do we do this again?' how do we try for a biological baby....when the odds are not guaranteed. I think I am just doubting that we will be OK, and I have been reading more about other people with SMA type 1 Children. The similarities are astounding.

On May 14th Page and I took the day off to go to The Cash's Healing Garden site at Children's to talk about the design we want to do. You know the garden site has a great view of the Mountains. it's really a great place already. I can't wait to get started.
Than we drove to The Garden of The Gods in Colorado Springs and took the dogs for a Hike. I think I just needed to get out of Denver and the house for that day...and be on a mini vacation for everything and just celebrate Cashie...hiking. It's a really pretty place.

I don't know how different i feel today, a bit freer..if that's a word. I know we are going to be OK. I know we will have healthy babies, I just don't know when.
Thank you all for the love. it has meant the world to me.
I love you my Cashie.
Cash's Mommy

Cash's Mommy Forever

2008-05-13T22:39:00.002-07:00

Happy (belated) Mother's Day to Teri, Cash's Mommy forever. Cash, you will always be missed, loved and treasured.

A POWERFUL AND BEAUTIFUL DAY TO EVERYONE

2008-05-13T07:22:00.003-07:00

Teri, Page, Cash, Spider, Strype and Cowie -

You all will be front and center in my mind all day long tomorrow. Sending you my love and support. I know it will be a tough day but get outside, see what nature can show you, remember Cash and know that he's still a part of us all. I was in Los Angeles a year ago May 14th and after talking to Page and getting the news I headed straight for the beach. Being outside has always been the best serum for me to concentrate and analyze the events that make life, life. I wasn't sure what to do after hanging up with Page so I wrote this in the sand and took a picture with my cell phone. I still believe it. Love you both.

Peace,

Jason

Flying Angel

2008-05-06T19:47:00.003-07:00

Well, Page and I are filling the time between now and May 14th with Work work work and running and skiing. It's been a hard time and we know there are loads of you all out there praying for us. We feel it. We both are taking May 14th off to be together and maybe sit in the garden space at Children's and start the design...maybe go for a hike at one our favorite hikes that we did when Cashie was still just inside my tummy.
We are moving ahead with our Adoption process for our Chinese daughter. It's a very long process but that seems ok for right now.
So Mother's day is Sunday....what am i to do? well, I signed up to run the Title Nine event in Boulder on Mother's day. I had signed up to do it last year with Cashie in a jogger, but the day after we bought the jogger....we ended up at Children's. So this year I am running it with Cash on my tshirt and on my shoulders. tell me that's not a powerful Mother's day. it amazes my the strength of the human spirit and the love my kid pours out to me even in his Spirit form. I feel him there all the time....sometimes on my shoulders sometimes on my chest...just hanging on.
I miss him so yet i know deep in my soul that he is coming back to me.
I just need to be less scared and trust that I can do this, I have the skills, I am a freakin' GREAT mommy. He is on his way back...just cruising the cosmos...helping out others where needed. I think Cashie hangs out with his 2 grandmothers a bunch too. I love that.

I love you my flying angel.
Cash's Mommy

1 year ago today

2008-04-27T17:01:00.002-07:00

So, it was a year ago that Page, Cash and i were in Children's, just starting our 2 week journey there.
My therapist says that i need to stop living there in my head, that Cash is not at Children's that he is free. it's just so painful and I just want to be happy again. i just want Cash home.
These are tulips that page and i planted the fall of 2006...a few months before Cash arrived. I wanted such a huge blast of color for Him and for visitors and to celebrate my son. So today i picked a few to enjoy inside and here so you can enjoy them too.
cash does bring such power, vibrant love to my life. i just miss him so very much. i pray these next 2 weeks go by fast and I can laugh..my son is not sick anymore. i miss you beanie. love , Mommy

My Fox

2008-04-21T07:36:00.002-07:00

So, After a week of many therapy sessions it is a new day. I saw my Fox this am running with the pups. It just stopped and stared. Yay Cashie! Just when I need him most, he shows up and reminds me that he is not in the hospital anymore, that he didn't want to be sick and leave me. I am working on not traumatizing myself with memories of the Hospital. It's hard work but I can't keep going down that road and breaking my heart over and over again, I will never get healthier if I do. So for right now, I will remember that my kids is flying around , as a Fox and my Angel to guide my throughout my day.

May 14th is coming up. It will be one year on the day that Cashie became an Angel. Page and I need loads of prayers if you have them.

I love you My super kid,
Cash's Mommy

Page 's birthday

2008-04-13T11:35:00.002-07:00

It's Page's Bday today. he's out golfing with buddies...I pray this day is a good one for him. I know all he really wants is his Son.
Cash's Mommy

bottomless grief

2008-04-10T21:47:00.003-07:00

My Son, after a debilitating day on Tuesday , the worst I have had in a long time. i really never left the house....I am getting better. I just went thru all the pictures I have of My Baby boy...and cried and cried and laughed..and said-you are real-and noticed how fast SMA took his body down. He was a squirmy kid at first. I pray for no more SMA in our lives. NO MORE!!!!

I miss my son with the bottomless pit of grief, it never lets up, it is always there and I am always aware the our lives are forever changed because Cash blessed us with his life. I am not the same person I was a year ago. I never will be her again. Yet somewhere in my soul I know that it's going to be OK for Page Cash and I. That we will be together again. That our journey as a family is far from over.
So please keep your prayers up. I know there are a lot of other people who need them, and we pray for those folks too. and the war to end.
Please know that as we approach May 14Th and that will be 1 year since Cashie passed in my arms at Children's that Page and I struggle to get thru each moment of each day...how we go on I do not know except that I know my Son will be back with me. I believe in reincarnation( and I don't know if i did before all of this but how can i not now)and that's what is getting me by right now. So I ask you this, please don't doubt me or call me crazy...because I know what's real. And I know my kid. Just help us to have patience until that day arrives.

All my love , Cashies Mommy

This kid sure does get around

2008-04-06T13:40:00.002-07:00

Spreading Team Cash Spirit to North Carolina are Gammy and Aunt Danger....this kid of mine sure does get around. Spreading Love wherever he goes. I love you beanie,
Cash's mommy

What's up now

2008-04-05T08:45:00.002-07:00

What a week. We keep thinking it's going to get easier but it's not. The tears keep coming and I am trying to function as a business owner.....and many days I just want to stay in bed. Running helps, yoga helps. Prayer helps. I just want my kid back.

We wnet to New Mexico for Easter weekend. Here are some things that happened there:

Hello all,> Page and I have been still digesting our trip. All the memories and all> the healing. We really are not alone in any sense and it was a true gift> to be a part of your group for the weekend. I have Spices that we bought> for Virgina Kay's store that i would love to share with any one who> wants some. Please let me know.> The weekend was for me: powerful, enlightening, full of Grace, full of> love, delightful, happy, devastatingly sad and yet deep down in the> bottom of my soul...full of Hope.>> Please know that you each in your own unique way have touched my heart> deeply.>> I will cherish this Easter weekend.And when times are tough and I am> sad, I have the ability to pull those memories and words of> encouragement from my heart and that soothes the pain.> You are all a very special gift .> All my love, Teri

2008-03-25T07:37:00.000-07:00

Cash is love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-19T07:05:00.003-07:00

So, This is what we have in the Cash's Garden Fund. Thanks to all of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We are overwhelmed and grateful.
Thank you!
Cash's Mommy

Happy St Pattys Day

2008-03-17T15:37:00.002-07:00

So, being Irish and always loving St Patricks Day I would like to extend a Happy Day and all of you who read the blog. We spent the weekend avoiding Denver Parade and parties and skied. and Camped in the Van at the Basin(yes it was cold, but not that cold) and had dinner with an old friend Todd, who made us laugh and laugh and laugh. It made me realise that seeing old friends have a way of putting time into perspective. I am so impatient to have our house FULL of babies...and yet it's not and we are waiting. But seeing an old friend made me realise that time is just what it is, time. and that I am enduring the grief and sorrow and heartache and sadness and yet page and I can still have so much hope for the future together as Parents. We know they are coming...just not when.
So raise your glasses please: to old friends, new friends, hearts full of love and the laughter that brings us together.

To my brave son, my Irish Blessing.
All my love,
Cash's mommy

go mama go

2008-03-06T17:48:00.002-07:00

So, I have been having a hard time, crying at the drop of a hat and then it goes away. I think that having all these new babies across the street from us is amazing...challenging.and as sign of things to come for Page and I. I had an old master Gardener friend ask me today aboutthe Garden Fund. It was the first time we spoke of Cash and it was ok to answer questions.
I also have realised that these days right now are all :memory days" Where Cash and I were crusing around, taking hikes with Mountain Mams or Daddy on the weekends. We were going shopping and starting to garden again....and he was with me every minute of those 16 weeks (except just a few) and I just miss him. I miss my Monkey kid who hung on me. 2 days ago I was sitting here working and I heard noises outside. I looked out the window to see 3 ladies pulling wagons, strollers full of babies. They were from the day care that Cash was going to go to and they sometimes take the kids down our street on their walks. I heard them say" this is Cash's house"....and just as they walked on my neighbor knocked on the door...and I just started to cry. He was so kind and nice to me. I have to take that as a sigh that babies are on their way to us...not as a sad thing. As much as I miss him there is this inner sense that it's all going to be ok.
There is this show on TV(yes, I am a HUGE TV person) called ' men In Trees' its' set in Alaska and there's a character named Cash. He is pretty sick, but the show itself has good meanings to its stories. Like this week I got" life always works out" I think my Dad would say that to me. I just have to stay strong in my beliefs that life will work it's way out for us.
You know I think about what God's plan for us is a lot. Why us? Why Cash? and then I believe that Cash came here to be a teacher to us, he teaches me daily to have love in my heart, to be kind, to be brave, to face what scares me. And being without him scares me but I have to face that every hour of every day. Have can I be with out my Heart and Soul. Shelly, my friend and teacher, has told me that for right now Cash is my Angel on my shoulder. I can feel him sitting there, cheering me on as I run and ski, grabbing my braids and yelling" go mama go!" so I am not without my Son just him physical body. And that was way to sick for his soul.
So off O go...trusting in the gut feelings I get, the" it's going to be OK and we;ll be together again' I trust that will happen...and Page and I will be joyously exhausted from lack of sleep...but i 'll take it.

All my love my sweet angel Cashie, mommy

a year ago today

2008-03-03T18:14:00.003-07:00

a year ago today Cash was with us here on Earth. We were probably taking a walk around Sloans lake or down to Starbucks.......I miss my Son. I am trying to be compassionate thru all this grief. Show Compassion for others. It's hard....or I am making it hard. I miss my Son.